Saturday, August 8, 2009 @ 4:51 PM
boo. back for my second post of the day. was blog hopping just now and found out that shicheng's blog is alive again. so read a few posts of his and what he says is really true. as in the content of his post. cant remember which day it was. im not a stalker.
well, just because of something that happen 2 to 3 months ago, we cut off relations with each other. well, the biggest regret i have over this issue is that we cant even be friends after we break up. like,
u said we could. and, i regret not being able to be friends with you anymore. like,
to accept you as a lover, i cant do it for now. to accept you as a friend, i believe i can. point is, im not even given a chance to be your friend. LOL. walking past each other is like walking past some stranger. we dun 'hi' to each other and we dun even smile. just turn our eyes away. that really suck. im seriously saying it in a point of view of a friend. not someone who have a crush on you or whatsoever.
i dun deny that i might have that little feeling of love for you, but, im sorry.
even if you want to be back tgt, i'll just reject you with a firm NO. that's all. all i want is to be
friends. like how we used to, even before we got tgt last year. can talk, can chat, can laugh, can play. now?? lol. none of the above. i was pondering over this question a few days ago.
why are we not talking to each other? obviously, i dunno y. and the more i thought of it, the more i cry. im crying cause i cant believe i lose a friend just like that. a close friend. a friend that i hold dearly to. seriously, just friends. i remember my first break up, we stop talking to each other for about a year plus. LOL. i guess, its just history repeating itself.
but, this time round, i doubt its a year plus. its like for a lifetime.
once secondary school's over, we'll be walking our own way, fulfilling our own dream. and, yes. i've lost that friend of mine. why cant we instead, cherish the times we had together now until we graduate?? all i know is that,
friendship cannot be bought. it can only be nurtured. once that link is broken, its hard to mend it back. i've taken a long and hard time to mend my relationship with other people and i managed. but, this relationship is so hard to mend it back.
'it takes two hands to clap' it doesnt work if only i try to mend this friendship. the choice is yours. but i guess, you would choose otherwise.
im sorry. but, i cant promise that i will stop loving you. but, it doesnt mean that we cant be friends. and,
i can promise you that we can NEVER get back tgt anymore. i've learnt not to break promises. so, rest assured. so many couples around me have been friends even after breaking up. and it hurts so much just to know that.
to all my juniors having that little conflict of yours: you'll never how hard it is to mend a friendship that is broken. if you dun cherish your friends, you'll regret it. most probably for life. pardon my grammatical error and stuff. this is not an essay. -.-
